Day 52

I went to the christening of the son of one of my bestfriends. It was nice seeing some of the old faces that I see almost everyday before. It is nice to cope up with them. I know that I am not close with them, but it is such a nice feeling to be with them at least for a few hours. Then I went to the reunion. It was okay. It was fun seeing the cousins. It is different without you, I think everyone misses your wit and your "kakulitan". It is a bit disappointing that some of the things that I was expecting to see didn't happen. I didn't stay long, I got to talk to your brother, and he also saw what disappointed me. He even said that they really just showed that they didn't want to give in. I told him that is why I give up. I lose. Nothing will change their mind with the decision that they have made. Then, he just told me to just be strong. Then I got a chance to talk to one of the "aunts". She is just so sad to what has been happening in my life right now... I told her that things happen and sometimes, we need to give up in order to have the peace of mind and to be at ease. I know that they support me whatever happens to me. Funny thing is that the people who are supportive of me are the ones that I don't expect. It is just so disheartening that this happens when you left us. I just hope that they will not be able to do this with others. I miss you so much. I hope and pray that the time will come that I will have the strength to face them again. I know that awhile ago you were there with me that is why I didn't feel any awkwardness. I just hope that next time it will be like that again.