Day 51

Today, i went out to pamper myself but then It never happened. It is like you were there and telling me not to go. I know you don't have the patience when it comes to waiting for me, so I think you were there and telling me that someone's waiting for me. 

Another thing, the movie that you have been waiting for is now showing. As much as I would like to watch it, it won't feel right. No one will be telling me the story that I was not able to catch, no one will remond me of what had happened before, no one will be holding my hand while watching, no one will be there to share the moment with me anymore. It will be different, and I don't think that I can handle it for months. This is what we do, not with others. It has always been our tradition. There would be more movies to look forward to, but then I will not be able to watch it. I may cry while watching it eventhough there is no drama in the movie. I just miss you so much... It makes me cry yet again.