Day 43

It has been 43 days since you left. I am not so sure if I am doing the right thing now. I am going back to my writing passion. It has been difficult for me to release my pains and anger for the past few days. I am still in denial. I still believe that you are here. 2 weeks after you left, that was the time that I found out the gender of our baby. It was difficult to be alone in this momentous life. I know you were there when I found out but it would have been more memorable if you were still there physically. Then I went to see the doctor and she was also shocked to know that you were gone. I think every one doesn't believe. You left me in a situation that I might not be able to handle alone. Good thing that I have the support of your cousins and siblings. I am sure that you are watching over me. I know that you don't like what is going on with my life right now. You left me to deal with the issues that I know you wouldn't care. It has been a very rough situation but I am trying to manage it. I sure hope that everything will be okay in the next couple of weeks. I am praying to you to give me strength to overcome this problems. I am hoping to be okay. I wish you are still here.